Tomorrow my fiance, future brother-in-law and I are planning on taking a day trip to Charleston. Yay! I’m happy, and plan on posting pictures, of course. Dexter, my 110 pound Rottweiler-lab mix (who thinks he’s a tiny little lapdog) is also going, and that always provides many photo opportunities, especially when combined with Otman and his antics. I’m lucky to have such a photogenic fiance! I swear, he looks good in photos no matter what kind of day it is!
While a day of fun is certainly in order, I’m conflicted! I would love to spend the day creating new business cards, price sheets, marketing materials, etc. I feel kind of guilty playing (on my day off) when I should be working on my other job! I’ve been working on rough pencil drafts in a notebook the past few weeks. I really should be doing more planning for my wedding, too… I can plan out a color scheme for an entire corporate identity, but I’m having the hardest time choosing the color for my bridesmaid’s dresses!!! I really have no time for anything these days! I think I’ve developed ADD! It’s actually quite comical, because I’m jumping around from wedding sites to photography blogs to Photoshop to Lightroom to InDesign, to my website, etc. Please forgive me if I’m a little scatterbrained these days. I promise it will get better! I’m enjoying the chaos, but am trying to find time for rest so I don’t crash&burn!
I’m not going to bail on Charleston tomorrow, though. I’ve found over the past few months that I MUST take creative personal time or I lose professional focus. I NEVER want to lose my passion for my photography. If it becomes too much of a job, I lose motivation. After a few days of rest and recharging my creativity, I’m ready to go again! I have photography OCD, to say the least!
This love is uniique. It’s weird, and hard to explain. Sometimes, when I see an awesome photograph, or read the blog of another really awesome photographer who has achieved success way beyond my wildest dreams, I get this feeling in my stomach: It’s a combination of butterflies, anticipation, and longing. The butterflies come because I get so excited to see such a cool idea – I think, “wow, what an amazing effect,” or “I wonder how the lights were placed to achieve that mood.” The anticipation wells up when I start getting inspired. I start thinking of ways those effects can apply to my style of photography, and I start thinking of when , where and who I can photograph! The longing always comes when I think of the day that I’ll see my photos in that medium, and hopefully start inspiring and teaching other photographers. As I stated in my previous post, as an artist, I LOVE sharing my art with others! 🙂
